A Young Wife’s Tale

What kind of sick, ignorant people think that all illnesses are caused by poor eating habits and inactivity? Seriously!? Have they never heard of genetic disease? Ugh! And medication is not evil! Sweet potatoes are not going to cure* my husband’s arthritis, moron!

Honestly? We’d have a baby right now if we could. But we can’t. With our chronic illnesses and all our medications, we are currently physically incapable. It’s very difficult being told you cannot have children until you’re healthier. And the doctors have no idea when that will be. It could be a month. It could be a year. It could be ten. Adoption isn’t an option. With our poor health, we wouldn’t even qualify to adopt. Plus, I can’t take care of David and a baby. We truly cannot have children until we’re healthy.

It happens all the time. I get the lump in my throat, I feel my eyes well up but I have to regain control of my emotions quickly. David’s in pain, and I can’t add to his stress. I’ve probably done it in front of you. Maybe you could tell. Maybe you couldn’t.

David and I have lost many things due to his chronic illness. Our youth and our newlywed years, for instance. We’ve certainly lost a lot of money. Specialists are expensive! Due to the medication David has to take, we’ve lost the ability to have children right now.

It’s always difficult for me to tell if I’m helping or hurting David. He’s in so much pain, and since I’m housewife, sometimes I think I should do everything for him. Then I think, “Wait. He’s going to work. If he can go to work, he can throw his own trash away.”