Mind Games
27 Jul
Do you ever play silly mind games? Like, if I just run for three more minutes my cellulite will disappear. Or the “What if?” game? David and I played that one a lot when we were engaged.
“What if I was raped and I got AIDS? Would you still want to marry me?”
“What if we’re infertile? How far would you be willing to go to have babies?”
“What if I cheated on you?”
“What if there was a natural disaster that wiped out communications and we were in separate states? How would we find each other?” There isn’t much chance of that one happening. We’re joined at the hip.
Anyway, I started playing another one today. It’s called, “What would you be willing to give up to make your arthritis go away?”
I’m much better at it than David. David wasn’t even willing to give up video games. It’s a good thing he’s not Catholic. He’d have a hard time with Lent.
I’d be willing to give up any of the following for life if it would make David’s arthritis go away forever.
Books (It would be hard, but I could do it.)
The internet
Music
My car
My house
Diet Coke
It’s a stupid game. It’s not like God’s going to trade any of those things to grant my request. But just in case he asks me, I’ve got my list ready!
Aw… Ash. Your love is so sacrificial. Just remember- many times tribulations are used for the good and though it’s hard to see the reason- God is still at work through it. I’m sorry he is still struggling with it.
I am familiar with chronic illness and thank God for “good days”. I’ll pray you have a “good day” today!
Ah yes. I have played this game. The problem is that when things start looking up, are you supposed to go ahead and give those things up voluntarily? I mean, assuming you really said to God that you would. We forget and just bask in the glow of everything being better. No, I don’t think God expects that. But I always think about it in the back of my mind and feel I went back on some promise. I also tend to over think things – can you tell?