My will is in limbo. I feel like a stretch Armstrong doll who’s about to be pulled in half. I feel like my stretching tolerance level is about to come abruptly to an end, and I am going to come to pieces. Has God ever damaged someone from pulling too hard? Probably not, but I want to believe that God is a mean butt hole because it makes my tantrums more justifiable. You say to yourself, “God doesn’t pull. You must be resisting Him. Your suffering is in your lack of submission to God.” A year ago, I would have thought the same thing. I would have looked at this situation and scoffed. Obviously, that person doesn’t have the spiritual tenacity to withstand the awesome call of God on their lives. They are just not prepared enough, not holy enough, not spiritual enough. [...]